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Monday, May 11, 2015

When It Rains......


This was my lesson for today, folks. If it could go wrong, it DID go wrong. It started with being up all night and not falling asleep until after 6:00 a.m. Then, after finally getting a few good hours in, I woke up (in a good mood, amazingly!) ready to take on the day. I got out of bed, into the shower and  at about the five minute mark, the shower curtain and rod fell down and hit me in the head. So; naked, wet, and cold, I tried to put it back up. I attempted this foolish task for about 10-15 minutes. Again, I'm naked, wet, cold, now on the verge of tears, yelling expletives at the top of my lungs, oh, and let's not forget, in a slippery tub...with the hot water running...and wasting away....I never did get the shower curtain back up (as a matter of fact, it's still laying on my bathroom floor in a heap). So, I decided that a bath would have to do. Unfortunately, that was a FREEZING COLD bath because I had let all the hot water run down the drain. I get out, my phone falls off the counter into water, but that, by this time, is no big deal compared to everything else. So, I start off on my day. I figured after the morning I'd had so far, my safest bet was to not leave the house (because I wasn't sure what other types of havoc might ensue) and put on my pajamas. And that is exactly what I did. I didn't get the laundry done, or the dishes, or the sweeping, dusting, or mopping. But here's the lesson: it's easy to look at your day, your week, or even your life and point out all the parts of it that are bad. All the parts of it that are wrong, in your mind. And all the parts that aren't exactly what you want them to be. What's difficult is looking at a situation where nothing is going right and finding the good. Being determined to not let the circumstances get you down or derail you completely. For someone like me who has anxiety, that can be harder than it seems. But making a conscious effort to do so makes a huge difference. So instead of dwelling on bad things when they happen, just throw up your hands, have a laugh and move on! Remember: even if your day ends up not being productive, that's okay! I may not have gotten everything done today that I wanted to, but you know what I did do? I watched a lot of Fixer Upper (I love Chip & Joanna-relationship goals...for real), I ate delicious pound cake with fresh fruit compote on top, I took the loveliest nap, and I didn't have to interact with people. And there is nothing wrong with that. Praise the good Lord in Heaven above for days that end up being full of nothing to do. Those are the very best kind. 


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Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day

I didn't have a whole lot of time to write today, but as you all can see, I spent mother's day with my mommy at Disney World. We didn't stay long (it was 96 degrees and CROWDED) but the time we did spend was cherished. I hope you all had a lovely day celebrating and being celebrated. All I've ever wanted to be was a mom, and I can't wait until I have my own little girl to spend this day with. But until then, I'm pretty content with this arrangement ;)




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Friday, May 8, 2015

Change Is On The Horizon


Hello my lovelies! It's been quite some time and I have a few things to say. First, a lot of (exciting) changes have recently taken place in my life and many more are about to occur. Second, I am committing to making my blog a main focus from this point on. I will attempt to write every day, and hopefully, it will be about things that interest all of you (but if not, that's okay too). My little corner of the internet is about to get a big overhaul (as soon as pay day rolls around) a la an entirely new look, new focus, and new url! I couldn't be more excited about the decision to take my space, my ideas, my dreams and passions and run with them, full steam ahead.

New Job- You all know that I work in a jail. It's been my life for the last three years, and I have changed and grown into a very different person than the 21 year old girl I used to be when I started. I have learned so much and made so many lifelong relationships while working there (but, I will write a separate, more in-depth blog post about all of that on my last day). However, now it's on to bigger and better things (and a pretty sweet pay raise)! I will be moving from the jail up to dispatch where I will be assisting officers and the general public as a 911 operator. Excited!

New Blog-As I said before, I am beyond excited to throw myself into this project and commit to it. I am changing my focus from beauty to things that have always interested me (instead of passions that are fleeting). So, if you like yummy recipes, funny stories, reading about my personal life, watching an apartment slowly come together, pretty pictures of a 24 year old's adventures, and motivational/ranting/random posts about growing up and getting my sh** together, then this is the blog for you. It'll be a myriad of wonderful awesome randomness and I hope you like it.

New Digs- I think the biggest change I've experienced through this whole phase is moving into my own apartment! It's not exactly the way I want it yet (so no full house tour until it is...perfectionist) but I'll show you all the little bits and bobs along the way as I slowly make this little place feel a whole lot more like home.

New Mindset- Since moving out, preparing to leave my old job, and stumbling upon my independence, I've realized a few things.

  • I am much more resourceful than I ever realized
  • Being an adult is HARD
  • Being an adult is WONDERFUL
  • I adore having my own kitchen to cook in, mess up, and clean
  • I enjoy the little things, like a breeze blowing through the windows and birds chirping when I wake up in the morning
  • I am capable of amazing, far reaching things that can inspire and touch so many people 
  • And most importantly, I'm great just the way I am. I'm still growing, and I'm still changing, but there is nothing wrong with me 
I am so excited to embark on all the new little adventures that are about to take place in my life and I'm so happy that some of you will be coming right along with me. I can't wait to read about all of your new little adventures, too! Off we go, into the wild blue yonder. 


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